Crisis of Faith

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Crazededdisian's most recent comments on the post about Costis got me thinking more about The Jump from the palace roof at the beginning of QoA again, in relation to the line in KoA we were discussing when Gen says if he tried it now he's probably eviscerate himself, which is of course true - and also in relation to two more things:

1. A line someone else delivers, probably Ornon, about how Gen had confessed to them that he often thought the distance was beyond him, but he did it anyway, which I always took to be a sign of utter faith in his god - that, as he was in his role of thief, he was safe unless his god willed otherwise

2. The king telling Costis he has a "superstitious fear of falling" at the top of the stairs after the assassination attempt, when Gen shouldn't be afraid of falling down stairs, because his belief is that the won't do that until his god is done with him, unless he's so rattled by the attack that he's afraid his time is up

Now, I always thought Gen's faith was firm all through KoA. I mean, the gods pretty much told him just a few months ago exactly why they had done everything that looked like forsaking him. The walking around on the parapets was a demonstration of that faith, right? But now I'm wondering.

So. "I would probably eviscerate myself." Is it just being realistic for once, or is it an admission that he's a bit worried at the moment that his god is done preserving him? And what does it mean in the context of the rest of that scene?

I know each of these things has been discussed before, but have they been looked at together?