Some Days

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I know this is a topic that has been analyzed a lot on here, but I need comfort, y'all. I was talking with Maureen, Brandy, Chachic, and a few other people on Twitter and basically freaking out, because there are days that I'm hit with the absolute certainty that Gen is going to die. I hope against hope that his illness a) is a ploy to draw attention away from something else, or b) real but will eventually be resolved.

But his fevers feel real. Irene's concern feels real. His relatives' concerns feel real. MWT is not a spare-your-darlings type. The gods have already proven they're willing to let him fall if it will further their desires. I keep hearing a line from The Shadow Throne by Jennifer Nielsen in my head. The main character, Jaron, is like a younger Gen, and he confesses in his final story:

"Mine has never been the kind of life that leads to old age."

As much as I want Gen to live a long life surrounded by children and grandchildren and loving subjects, I'm not sure that will happen.

So now we come to my threefold purpose. First, I want you all to suffer with me, because I'm frightened. Second, I want to hear your theories regarding Gen's illness and possible demise. Third, what do you think will happen if he does die? (I, personally, will mourn him deeply, but my concern is for Irene.)